I find it hard to give up carbohydrate and sugar as much as gambling.
I find it hard to exercise as much as attending church service and activities regularly.
I did not want to change shows how much I do not love and respect myself and others. I take for granted all the good people, good health, good job and money I have until I loses them.
Near death experience can change everything. Suddenly I realize that everything can be taken away from me if I do not take good care of them, there is no second chance, I must treasure and be grateful of them, I must live each day like it was my last..
I can also love someone so much that I am willing to give up everything that is important to me to keep them. I love them so much that I want to change. Glory to God.
If the courage to change does not come from me, the courage to change must come from somewhere, otherwise I cannot find the strength to do it.
I will be touch and tears can drop whenever I was reminded of myself; When most people don’t want to have anything to do with me, avoid me, walk away from me, reject me like a piece of filthy garbage and how God pick me up. God is love.
I praise God for the love, wisdom and strength in discipline, hard work, and determination. If I can do this on my own, I wouldn’t have fall countless times.
The Bible teaches me to love God and others. It is God’s wisdom to love the unlovable. The biggest unlovable is me but not in the eye of God.
My good friend and mentor teach me to love God, others and myself the way God love me unconditionally.
I am very much Work in Progress. Recovery life is not perfect, it is ok not to be ok now, things will get better in the end.