Hello Monicau,
Sorry to hear you are in pain. I hope the medication kicks in fast.
Diet, too plays a part and I’m sure you don’t need any lectures on smoking but they don’t help either. (Just sayin’!)
I can’t point any fingers….just back from a weekend family event and I spent last night in agony in a hotel bed from over indulgence. Like gambling, it’s so not worth it!! Of course when the suffering subsides we tend to forget and quickly return to the “pleasure” that caused it.
Gambling caused ( or certainly exacerbated)a lot of health issues for me. CGs tend to ignore warning signs and use the “Poison chalice” as a cover up. Without it we are left with many open wounds, some emotional, some physical. In the Serenity prayer I think the “biggie” is “The wisdom to know the difference”.
Despite your many on going issues, I sense a huge change in your outlook since you started this thread less than a month ago. I don’t know if you have chaired a GA Meeting ever but that IS a cathartic point in recovery (I chaired two meetings this week!) GA is a great leveller. We get to meet so many people from different walks of life. It can be both humbling and uplifting to realise we are no different from anybody else.
Our lives are in God’s capable Hands. I have found when I sought joy and happiness in the wrong places, things always ended in tears. Of course Real Life is not a bed of Roses. My belief is that we are just passing through this Life and there is something far better in store. The Gospel today was “You cannot serve two Masters” Matt. 6. How true! I’m glad Gambling is no longer our ruthless master.
Keep posting Monicau. You are doing well
By the way, I’m glad you like my poem. Thanks for your gracious comment.
