Cat , thanks so much for your post. I woke this morningh and had myself a good cry (a little pity party). I a still trying to find my way without my husband. Sometimes, I feel all alone. My family isn’t and hasn’t been close for some time. I have a few friends in the city but I have never been one who has had a lot of friends. I am questioning what my purpose is on this earth. Cat, I said some inappropriate things in response to my daughter’s outburst. I have apologized to her but only received how I caused her addiction problems and was a terrible mother to her. I know that things are said in the heat of the moment but these are things that she has said before . Looking back. I was trying to buy her love because I don’t know how to get her to love me. Real sad when you think about it. Anything I said about my Grandsons weight was out of concern. I thought a long time before I approached her and she seemed to be on board. I feel a lot of animosity from her. I am sure she is unhappy about the past and my closeness with her son. I cared for him when she was unable to. I want to go to her and just hug her and try to start over but she has made it clear for me to not contact her. I will keep my distance and see what happens. I will call at some point to talk to my Grandson. I am going to the gym this morning. Today will be a good day for pulling weeds as we had a light rain last night. No thoughts of gambling
