Brilliant post mate. I’m feeling more clear headed than for a long time, due to me being 25 days clear, but I feel massive regret for what I’ve lost. We were packing the office up today. My head, the addict in denial, still keeps telling me that I can save my company – but it’s too late for that. I have my appointment at GMA and I have to remember the state I have been in this year – absolutely wrecked mentally and physically.
I am starting to realise that I will have to live with this forever, I need some techniques to overcome what I have done and to make sure, should new opportunities arise in the future, that I can stay away from all forms of gambling. I look back to how I was last year, and parts of this year, and I was a complete slave to gambling. I just couldn’t stop, I had no control over it. It did something to my brain chemistry which made me forget about everything else.
Hats off to you Adam, for being able to do it. Day 60 in GA would get you a second keyring. Great work mate.