boy did you say a mouthful! It sure is losing time and money and a good mood. Not only do we waste the time we spend gambling, we waste the time we spend thinking about gambling. Where to get the money, what lie or cover up to tell to get it, the time we spend thinking about the loss that just occurred. And then there is the time we spend thinking about where we can get more money to replace that money. Truly between that and fantasizing about the big jackpot we invest most of of waking thoughts to it really. Especially when deep in a gambling cycle with no room for anything else. I’m glad that you are having some good feelings. Gradually it gets easier. There will be bad days for sure, but it will get easier as time goes on. Have a great evening!