I’m not going to go on like I did last week Eraser suffice to say, its no real surprise you’ve gambled again.
It is hard, bloody hard. I do appreciate that.
I get what you were saying in your last post about you came here hoping that you could ultimately end up just doing your footy bets on a Saturday.
It took me years, literally years, to accept that I couldn’t ever do that. I do understand how you felt, I have a complete understanding of how you feel at the minute.
You cant force recovery, it just happens. It happens when we realise that we need to change a lot more than just not gambling.
I am off to work now, if I get time through the night I’ll try and post a bit more.
After gambling again, after I had been free of it for a few days, or weeks. I would have hours if not days of not sleeping and calling myself a stupid fat c*** for doing it again. Doesn’t serve any purpose to beat yourself up about it.
Try and get some sleep. Rome wasn’t built in a day, and if you can remain focused and you genuinely can accept that just can not gamble ever again, you will beat this.
Take care.
Geordie.