Believe in yourself because it is YOU alone who will need to tread this path. It’s a long process but a very rewarding one. You will get that confidence and strength back as soon as you have the courage to say “no more!”
Though it seems like youre in a loop of gambling and regret, it CAN stop. It starts with saying to yourself “this will stop. I will not spend another penny on this destructive habit!” And it is a habit, a fast moving, toxic habit that makes us become zombies, slaves to a money making scam. Those so called wins were not wins. Ask your rational self, did I actually benefit financially from it or am I at a loss?
Take one day at a time to focus on your recovery. Open upto your wife because she needs to know what you are facing and will help you to put obstacles in your way to stop you from gambling
ultimlately, it starts with yourself, YOU actually wanting to stop and placing obstacles in place, including transfering your salary to a close one’s account until you have had enough GF days to think rationally about this habit. Stopping will allow you be clear of the haze that gambling creates and really look good and hard at your financial situation, your life and yourself. It’s only then that you can repair, rebuild and find peace of mind.
You will find yourself again. Make today a gamble free day. Make yourself a promise that you will not gamble anymore and focus on each day to make that happen. Those GF days will add up to finally put you in a better place than you are in right now.