Hi Addi
However strong your faith is, God alone can not release you from the gambling hell you are living with.
God may give you courage and strength but at the end of the day it is down to you to set about changes within yourself.
Its great you have found this site and that you are looking for help, I think its also good that you are looking now before you end up in a far worse predicament. Gambling is progressive and if you manage to stop on payday after spending a quarter of your wages this shows you do have resilience. Something that gets completely eradicated over time to many CG’s (compulsive gamblers).
For your sake please seek out as much help as you can, you dont say where you gamble but whether it be online or in venues they all have exclusion policies and I would recommend that you get yourself excluded. It also helps a great deal to talk face to face about your gambling either with a loved one, friend, family member or a professional therapist/counsellor. ~The more people know, the more they can help.
Obviously you are not unique nor alone with your problem, great that you’re looking for help with it also.
Please keep your thread going, its nice to watch people’s journey unfold.
Take care.
Geordie.