Dear diary
Every time it happen, the change was a painful process. It seem to be more painful when good things was given and taken away suddenly. One has already got used to the life, the comfort, stability, peace and joy.
When the material comfort was lost and taken away, and replace by the discomfort of poverty and debt. Life takes a drastic turn.
After a few turning point in my life, I am still not used to it. When I was hit the first time, I was diagnosed to suffered from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
Fast forward 25 years later, life has improved, and I have more experiences and confident but I am still a product of work under construction, I was still very affected when the hard trial in life come.
This time I was caught unprepared, I did not expected the good weather to turn bad, at least I never thought it can and will happen to me, not again.
The pain did not come from the seriousness of the problem, it come from my lack of preparation and readiness when it arrive, I did not anticipate this situation and cannot see it coming, it hit me hard.
This problem is real. At this point of my life, this problem has stand out in my recovery.
No matter what type of trial that comes, and the changes, pain and suffering that it brings.
Gambling must never be an option and must not be used for the escape route and for quick relief. The repercussion is heavy.
I am sure this a small trial for me, it is a test, a learning lesson, a wake up call for me to prepare for the bigger storms that will come later in my life.
I will grow old, jobless, lonely, broke and sick one day. I am a man of small faith, if that happen, it will be very hard for me to survive.
This experience has open up my eyes, it has shown me the urgency to prepare and be ready for the rainy days, tsunami and storm ahead in my life.
I cannot do this on my own, I would need the strength and help of God to survive the storms ahead in my life.
I would have to persevere right to my last day – to stay total abstinent one day at a time, to the best of my ability.
Thank you God for everything.