thanks Jonny & P it feels good but i also know that i have been at this place before and although i wont be as complacent again, it still is only one bad decision away from messing up but i also think it’s good to keep remembering that.
yesterday was day 7 of the 10 extra days that i committed myself to working to pay back some of my lost funds, well it’s actually now 15 since my last binge but i am getting there, haven’t had a day off since september and its tiring but i keep telling myself that 2 extra days of working is what i would lay down in a single bet without a second thought. Thursday is the when i get paid and i start to see some of those extra days, yes i am nervous but i plan to put some it into my savings account which i can never do when i am gambling and i am expecting to start therapy around soon so i have help in place to prevent that money going to the bookies, i actually don’t think i could bare to part with it in that way due to connection i am now making with hours worked to amount gambled.
today i will not gamble 🙂
