Anger often held me back from gambling too, BU. Anger at the “greedy casino owners” Anger at myself, at others,as did pride, greed , sloth, you name it !
And guess what? All these emotions CAUSED me to gamble on occasions too, until, in the end, I felt no emotion. Just like a zombie feeding machines mindlessly.
I never felt extreme urges either BU. Just got the notion to go and off I went nonchalantly !
Recovery is all about awareness, BU. For me it hits me in fits and starts.
As Geordie says “Just because the monkey jumps off your back, doesn’t mean the circus has left town!”.
