I hear you on the “kindred spirit “friends, I -did-it. Very few of them around. I guess we encounter the people we need to meet at a given time in life (and of course the people we would prefer not to have ever met) . Relationships are a bit like recovery. We get back from them what we put into them (sometimes!) The people close to us are often set aside or undervalued while we waste time looking for a “better deal”.
If I put half the effort into my immediate relationships as I did with the elusive ones, maybe things would have worked out differently. Who knows!
I hope your anxiety has subsided.
