[Courage]

Amidst the pain

This is what i have found today. I think i have found what i would say is acceptance. I dont feel the fight at this point, there is not fight. i think maybe why i gambled for so long is simply i thought one time i would be able to do it, next time i will do it, next time i will be ok. There has been thousands of next times that only turned to disaster every single one of those times. I just feel like a lightbulb has been turned on. I dont think anyone else could get me to this point, i think i had to go through it. I had to find acceptance. Right now i fully 100 percent accept, i cannot gamble.

Courage