The AMBIVALENCE THOUGHTS I had about quitting as a result of euphoric recall make me suffer for many years.
I made matter worst when I compare myself to people who are successful in recovery but don’t talk about their ambivalence thoughts and euphoric recall.
Why can’t I be like my mentor who talk the walk and walk the talk. I condemn myself more, and feel like a hypocrite.
Today I have accepted who I am. I am a recovering addict and all the things that has happen to me is normal. I feel very comfortable with myself because I can already see the baby steps progress I made over years by the mercy and grace of God.
My recovery was not perfect, my life was not perfect but life is much improve now. There is more peace, gratitude contentment and joy, less pain and suffering each day. I am thankful for all that as i wake up each morning knowing I have survive another day by the power, mercy and grace of God, in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.