[micky]

Had a big urge to gamble earlier around 5.30 pm, on way home from taking my son back to his mams. I recognised the urge, one which i have had in the past on my way home also for some reason when i have done night shift the night before . I didn’t give in i talked my way out of it telling myself that even if i did win i would continue to gamble until it was all gone whether it be today , tomorrow or the day after that. I also told myself not to ruin the hard work ive put in physically and mentally over the last few weeks. So a big reminder to me to be aware of just how vulnerable i can be without noticing it until it was so very close to dragging me along the wrong street.