Firstly – it is great to see you posting here, although I am sad about the circumstances. It does show the determination a gambler has when he wants to bet – to use crypto-currency to do so.
I smiled with recognition when I saw your comment about Africa. I too had a thought to do something “out there” when I kept “slipping,” only I was not as brave or as philanthropic as you. I resolved to become a Buddhist monk in Laos – as I thought there will be no casinos, slots or any temptation there + I might learn something. It felt like a good plan. Then I thought – well if that is my back-stop what can I do to make my present life better and I worked my recovery.
Working it, for me, meant not only stopping gambling, but looking at the reasons why I was gambling in the first place. That did mean group work (GA and other) counselling and talking to people on help-lines and forums. All things I had resisted when I was seriously in action. Feeling I was now a recovering gambler and not in action – helped to keep me in recovery … if that makes sense!
I wonder if it is worth seeing a medic about your depression. Sometimes it has a physical cause and medication can help.
Please do get as much support for yourself as you can. You are not alone with this and by seeking support you are trying to do something about it and put your life back on track. I wish you well!