Jodes husband asked me the other week if dames and I would like to come to Melbourne for the weekend next weekend and go to a show etc, I didn’t think dames would want to go but he did which surprised me greatly. I asked him tonight if he was looking forward to it, he grunted so I asked if he still wanted to go. He told me that if he could he would sell the show tickets and not go. So, as you can imagine I’m feeling pretty low. Coincidentally, eat, pray, love is on the tv. As I have been watching I have realised a few things….. I am a woman without a word, I look to others for my happiness, I am, for want of a better word, lost and I don’t know how to begin finding myself. I have found the person I was before my addiction took over my life, but I now realise that my whole life I have been covering up, ignoring my feelings, not rocking the boat, and as ketut on the movie says, I have lost my balance. So I am turning here for help because I have no idea where to start this search. Would anyone have any suggestions …..books, websites etc. I have to be proactive in this, happiness will not just drop in my lap. I know it’s a big ask seeing as I only seem to come here when I need something, I would be so grateful. Love to you all, K xxx
