Hello, from your most recent post, it is clear that your gambling has created several problems for you. It has affected your finances and your relationships.
Now is not the time to forget your problems; it is the time to face your problems. Using gambling as an ecape will only make the problems bigger.
Though your problems may stem from your gambling problem, they are separate from each other.
Your financial probloems may be eased through negotiation and you explaining that you are a recovering gambler and your gambling contributed to the problems.
Your relationship problems, with your wife and son will take time to solve. If you are trustworthy, honest and open with your family, and stay on the right track, over time, your relationship with them may improve.
You need to be patient. The problems your gambling has caused will take time to resolve. Getting stressed about them or overwhelmed by them won’t help. Working with the people who have been affected by your gambling is more likely to work.
You could have a timetable for addressing different problems over the next couple of weeks.