Addiction exerts a long and powerful influence on the brain that manifests in three distinct ways:
1.craving for the object of addiction,
2.loss of control over its use, and
3.continuing involvement with it despite adverse consequences
What happen?
I have reservation
It was during my many periods of sobriety in recovery that I tried to do it differently, every time without fail, I ended up with regrets, until I become fully convince of the AA saying that my brain was cook, it was like a cucumber that has turned into a pickle, it is useless to think I can reverse it.
Where am I now?
I am fully convince
This addiction is like a terrorist, I need to be constantly on guard against it, I need to succeed every time because they need only one time to succeed and my brain will be hijack.
My brain was hijack, that was exactly what happen to me on the 9th April 2016.
My Action
Go total abstinence to the best of my ability.