Debbie, Thank you for the insight. Accountability to myself, my friends and my family is something I need. I was getting so tired of making up outrageous stories; taking vacation days from work and not telling anyone; having my friends or family need to get in touch with me and me not answering because I was too busy gambling, or I didn’t want them to know where I was. It was a lot of work. It exhausted me. Today my sister and brother-in-law are off from work. My sister wanted me to come to the casino with them. I told her i had no money. She said she would give me some, because it is her birthday and she wanted me there. I said no. Normally my urge would win out and I would be there right now. Instead I organized my wardrobe for going back to work on Monday. The nerves of starting this new job are killing me and I am proud that I did not go and gamble to relax. I know if I keep up with this way of thinking I will be OK. The problem is being accountable when I have money. I am actually afraid to get paid sometimes.
