Dated 3 July
Accept
(1) I am having a cold and sore throat today.
(2) My ex employer told me that my wages has been paid and I will receive them either on Friday last week or Monday today but it didn’t happen.
Tolerant
(a)The Court has order my ex employer to pay me. I have waited for the money for more than a month now. I have experience emotions like disappointment, frustration, anxiety and powerlessness during these time.
I accept that it was ok to feel not ok. I am not perfect, I am only human. I need to learn to be patient and wait without doing anything stupid. They will pay me one day.
(b)Without this payment from my ex employer, my life is not going to turn for the worst. I do not need to panic and I can wait.
Heavy Consequences
Pressing the self-destructive button in a panic will definitely makes things worst. Stupidity and anger has cause me to lose or spend huge sum of money, it is not worth it.
Letting Go
(a) I am grateful to have a job and an income now. I don’t need to change thing.
(b) It was my expectation of things, when it is not met, I get frustrated and disappointed. I become impatient, I want to change things. I was unforgiving and want thing to be on time. I need to change my attitudes in life and learn to let go of unrealistic expectations.
(b)There is no need to gamble to fix thing or take alcohol to feel good.
(c) I needed the extra money very much to pay my outstanding bills quickly but I am glad and thankful that I have is enough to cover the bill every month slowly.
(d) first day of the month is so important for my sales. I have second thought and fear about resting when I am sick but if I do not rest and recover, I will be sick for more days and the damage will be bigger in the end.
Faith
Everything will be fine in the end.
Trust
There is a greater power than me!
I am nothing and God is everything!
I accept that I have make many mistakes in the past. I cannot change my past.
My future start with taking one baby step at a time, one day at a time to do the next right thing.
Recovery is a spiritual program.