Vera, I was just re-reading your post and the acceptance and gratitude really made me think. We go through life always wishing or dreaming about having a bigger house, a bigger car, more money, fancier clothes or whatever and not being grateful for what we have. Life is not about material things, but somehow we all get caught up in, if only I had this or that I would be happier, and don’t show gratitude or feel gratitude for what we have. I believe more and more it is all about inner peace. Inner peace could mean different things to different people. It can be your Faith, it can be your spiritual self, it can be loving who you are, as you are. We all face our own struggles or demons or whatever we want to call them. In searching for this do we end up at a Casino or gambling wherever because it is filling a void and numbing our inward struggle for peace. I don’t know the answer and I don’t know if some people may think I am “crazy”, but if it makes me think it is a good thing.
I get so caught up in trying to control things instead of letting go and Let God. I find if I can accept that it is not in my control that it helps with the inner peace. There is no doubt about it.. I am a work in progress.
I don’t think I take enough time to be grateful for all that I have. I am retiring, but I am having a hard time letting go. I do love my job as I work for a charity and it provides a fulfillment for me. I have worked for next to nothing at times, I have given up financially by staying. I have worked hard to get it to where it is and it is doing well now, and I should be proud of that. However, it is time to let it go and let someone else come in and tend to it. To help it get bigger and help even more kids. It is a few months until I retire, but it’s time for me to think about what I want and start looking forward to that. I have worked most of my life, well except for about 10 years when my kids were young, but even then I was volunteering or organizing something. I don’t know what the future holds, none of us do, but with Faith I know I will be fine. I don’t know if I will end up working part-time, but I do know I need to take time off and see how it all works out.
I am rambling away, like journaling here, trying to understand.
I have to get back to “just for today” way of thinking. Just for today I will have Faith and not gamble. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
Have a wonderful gamble free day everyone!!!!
