Thank you all for your comments and advice, it really is nice to have some support and as cliche as it sounds, although its not good for anyone to go through it at all, its good to know I am not going through this alone, the world is not just against me as it seems. Regardless I have not had any relapse to gamble but instead i have been feeling down about all the money I have lost and trying to figure out how I can earn or get the money back because now my bills are starting to get the better of me. I genuinely do not want to gamble again, it is just a disease that is run by the big players of the game who have nothing to lose and prey the less fortunate because we want that life!
I just sick of it and wish these gambling sites were all taken down would make this a much more better world.