[TTA]

I’ve felt down in general today. If I’m in honest nothing in particular happened to cause this but find these days come from time to time.

Some days I reflect more than others and certainly do this when I have too much time on my hands.

Dealing with the consequences everyday are challenging and a strong reminder of how devastating my addiction was, as well as knowing it will following me like my shadow for the rest of my life. The ironic thing is that although I know gambling has caused financial ruin and times are hard, I actually feel richer than I ever have by continuing to be gamble free. Re building is a long process but each day I don’t gamble my life improves I’m sure.