[lklfc18]

We’re on day 11 now but today has been hard. Been a stressful day at work and now just worked money out for the next month we’re going to struggle to get by and of course my thought is to gamble. Im not going to be able to as my wages will go to my wife but the thought is there. Notices closeness of other people’s relationships and am starting to get jealous where I didn’t before. Was I gambling to fill a void I never had? Right now that’s what it feels like. I will stay strong and I won’t gamble no matter how strong the urge is. I know give it a couple of months and things will get easier right now I just feel like I’m at the bottom of the barrel and the light is so far away. LK