Thank you Velvet! As always, your words are a lullaby to me. I feel such a comfort and support. It empowers me.
I am actually acting like a crap these days. I do not show any will to do anything at home. My smiles and laughs are half sincere. He is not the center of my attention anymore (and to be honest, I feel a little guilty). And it is starting to unplease him.
If there is sth I will never do, it is giving him money. I am totally aware of the enabling cycle and will be always safe financially.
I am going to try to talk about what I know and ask him how can I trust him.
We were supposed to go for a drink today but he didn’t talk about it at all this evening. I told he seemed not ok and we should do that on another day.
I think he gambled and won some money cause he bought some weed… he prefers staying alone. It doesn’t bother me.
See you later Velvet! 🙂