Hi Romana
I think you will agree with me that if cannot pay for his transport pass or his phone bill and therefore, cannot meet his friends, the only person he should be blaming is himself. If he carries on gambling, he will miss a lot more than just seeing his friends.
The addiction to gamble gets worse, unless it is treated. Your boyfriend is not accepting how serious his gambling is and maybe he has to hurt himself a lot more before he accepts responsibility – but if you paid his bills you are in effect paying his gambling debts and if you clear those, then he has no incentive to look at his own behaviour and seek help.
Maybe you could tell him that you do know about his latest slips and ask him how you are supposed to trust him when he doesn’t tell the truth.
Dramatic texts and blaming you are distractions.
I understand why you couldn’t say you wanted him to leave or that you wanted him to stay; what you want is for him to seek support -but until he does. I think you can have very little trust in his words, if any.
I know that being strong is so very tough but you are doing it for him as well as you.
Hoping to ‘see’ you tomorrow evening.
You are doing well.
Velvet