Hi teapackamc,
Thanks for sharing some more information on your situation.
As previously mentioned, I would strongly recommend attending a new members group which I think could be a big help for providing guidance/support.
Two items that I found very useful after attending my first intro meeting that it sounds like may also be applicable to you.
1) Removing/reducing access to money and/or adding accountability for any spend you make. If you have a friend or a family member who is willing to manage your money for you, that can be a big help. The important thing about this is that the money is still yours and you have control over it, but any spend that you make has to go through that person you trust. This also isn’t something you have to commit to forever, just that it is something that will currently help you. If you don’t have anyone who you feel comfortable handing myour money, an alternative approach is to make your spend as accountable as possible. For example, you could provide someone you trust with view access to your online banking, or share an online bank statment once per week with that person.
2) Adding barriers to make it as difficult as possible to gamble. This can include permanently closing all accounts , Getting self excluded from live and online betting shops/casinos, installing gambling blocking software on your phone and laptop, reducing access to money (point 1)