Hi Murr,
Count me as another person rooting for you and hoping you’ll keep us updated. The honesty you’ve shared is phenomenal, and I think that’s key to beating this addiction. Your 18 months GF streak is PROOF you have what it takes to beat this. There isn’t a person here who hasn’t stumbled along the way. In fact, I think its a necessary part of the process. You get knocked down, but then get right back up!
Block/forget about the negative people in your life and associate with positive, well meaning people who want the best for you. There are many here, so I hope you’ll take advantage…