Hi Joerdj,
You wondered why life is meaningless. What is the meaning of popping up into existence just for the one to live “suffer” for few years and then vanish forever!!! it is meaningless.
I am an atheist so no heaven or hell no after life, sometimes I think of how wonderful this life is, yes I can try to find some meaning that can keep things rolling to the end, but deep down it is meaningless. I like what Woody Allen said about that:
“I have tried religion I have tried philosophy but in the end what we got is a bad deal and all you can do about it is to distract yourself…the distraction could be work, family …etc”
Finally, I will find a distraction and keep things moving.
Hi charles,
Thanks for your support, what really hearts me this time is I back to square zero again, I am not the same person who started this recovery journey 4 years ago, for instance, I am four years older now, I have relapsed many times. And I am deep in debt again. I have to struggle for another 3 years to start living a normal life again. and then what? another relapse!!!
These suicidal thoughts were just temporary and I get rid of them.
it is a painful situation. I can find some hope but deep down I am frightened from another relapse.
Hi Sunny,
It was a down moment, a hangover from the relapse, what matters now is to prevent it from happening again.
I started the usual steps again cutting cards, closing accounts..etc I will see how I can do it differently this time because as you can tell it is not going well so far.
Hi Kin,
You asked ”
have you listen to the advice and do all the things possible that will stop you or cut you off from gambling totally?:
My answer is I did it partially but it seems it is not working, what is hard for me is to inform a family member or a friend about my addiction. I know it is a big part of recovery but for me, it is very hard to do so.