Hi All,
@ GF day 6
It was an exteremly tough weekend that many triggers keep come about.
I shall name the evil monster that keep whispering to me “Evil Sporty” to do some deposit in my betting account, and i been getting back at it by telling him off to get away from me, remember my past lifes and journey. Do i just want to get back at it for a spite of moment. One of the screen that i tell myself is having my kids and family on a weighting scale on the left, and the ” DESTRUCTIVE Adult disneyland on the right”. Pick one.
Another thing i have been doing to handle triggers this period of time is keep watching and listening on youtubes on overcoming addictions plus goggle more informations and readings. This kind of help thru quite a bit.
I realise that one of the trigger usually come about during boredom and little bit of light stress. Therefore, i am hoping to go further in to identify and find ways to see if i can have more preventive measures in.
Another main trigger is also due to the access of funds which im currently working on handing over to someone close to me, while beside beating the gambling addiction, im also working out on my money finanical management. Hoping to learn better and working hard on it since im bad at it since young.
As much as i understand that i had too much on my plate right now to handle, i have decided to quit smoking and alchohol as well, which actually started 3 days back. Pretty sick of all these sort of addictions and hoping to end it all, and to be a good leading example for my kids.
The other important side to me is to reach out to close friends and familiy. I been sharing with my family amd close friends for support and help on my intention to beat the addictions but not yet sharing about the gambling side, which i intend to tell them once im ready, hopefully soon.
I still have pretty much to share but i believe that it is a very long journey that i need to slowly work it thru and i know that i cant just achieve this journey thru using will-powered and etc.
I will and must be ready for this long battle no matter how tough it is and i believe that God is there to help as long as we are willing to give up for change.
For those who is reading these and whom are in same situation. Please do not give up, it is important to reach out.
Lastly , i do hope that you guys or anyone can give me some comments or any supportive message to help us together to get thru this journey together.
Thank you and God Bless us all.
Sunny
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