24 days. By far the longest time I’ve given up and finally starting to feel happy about it. I was reading others journals and one guy mentioned he uses a site to watch others play and it helps him as he sees others losing and it reminds him of the reality. So I went there and it must have been on a wining night. Everyone was winning and winning big. So I looked into online slots. Thought to myself, I’ll just play the free money they give you at the beginning and if it doesn’t amount to anything then just shut it down (yeah right like that would have happened). Luckily enough I found out online gambling is banned in my country and read some people having issues cashing out unless they run it through something called a VPN. I’ve never been happier to be computer illiterate. Have no idea how to open that door and thank goodness. Still watching the site though as I’m waiting to see these losses as let’s face it, you never win. It also has started making me feel a little calmer as I see the spins and can tune out. I am wondering if it’s a bad thing to do. Is the addiction linked to watching the machines or the hope of winning the jackpot. Either way I have no access to finances so can’t head to the club even if I wanted to. Happy I set up those barriers. I have my first pay coming in too since quitting. Looking forward to watching my bank account grow again
