Guys although plaza is very harsh. There is some truth to his post. He’s right. Why aren’t I helping myself? Why arent I handing finances over? Do I blame my gf for leaving? Nope: I would leave me too. I’m about to lose more than $. I lost my mind, my gf, every penny to my name. Will probably lose my job soon. I might have to move back in with my parents. Why didn’t I learn? Because the addict in me didn’t want to stop. I cleared my debt. I was up 60k. I was on cloud nine. I was about to go get my
Dog tomorrow. I have cancelled that. I have nothing left. My visa is maxed (23,500). My line of credit (10,000) , over draft 2500. Owe my friend 16k. Rent coming, car payment. Life is a living hell. When I am asleep, is the only time life is ok. When I wake up, I am living in hell on earth. I need to help myself. I need to make changes, put barriers in place. Because people won’t feel sorry for someone who doesn’t try just 1 thing to change..
Why? Because I am an addict. And an addict doesn’t want to make just 1 change, because they he can’t gamble. I thought rock bottom was losing 30k in a summer. Fast forward, 50k in 3 days. I don’t want to accept it. It was at 30k Monday. Last night I miss 1 point on a 5 game parlay to win 75k. Didn’t sleep, didn’t eat, didn’t work. There is not much to live for right now. Rehab is the best bet, but i hope I make it before that time comes, cuz at this rate, I can die any day now. God bless to all.
Love, always.
Stephen