I’m speechless. You have the will power of a flea. What happened to be being clean for a day just over a week ago, before I let rip?
Murrs my friend, please do not worry about me, or upsetting me with what you are doing. I have my own demons to fight, despite coming up to my 2nd anniversary of being slot free for two years after a 41 year addiction. I still watch the slots via Twitch and I get to watch all the peeps pump $thousands into these slots and lose and it works a treat for me because I think to myself, that could be me losing all that cash.
But it was extremely disappointing to read you blew $50k in a 3 day bender and the last post was correct. If you know you have this addiction, why in gods name do you have access to cash? No wonder your GF left you, you have to see it from her side. No doubt you were not available for the last 3 days whilst out gambling and the to explain where you have been and blown cash that would of bought a brand new car, are you a bit surprised she left you? Think how she feels and think how she will always feel being with an addict. Will she ever be able to trust you, even after the 21 day course in May, no, she will not and so can you blame her? You need to put your heart and soul into this relationship and if you are not prepared to do that, then you still have not reached rock bottom. Until you do reach that bottom, you will always be that addict.
I mean you no harm fella and I am not trolling you either with my post’s. But peeps who know me, know I say it instead of thinking it. I am not one of those who will call you once your back is turned, no, I will call you to your face and this post is the same. You know exactly what you need to do and if you are not prepared to give up your right to your cash to someone you trust, then you are still very interested in gambling.
I will not wish you luck because it means nothing. Only when you have made some progress, will I share my sentiments with you. But I do wish you luck in getting your partner back, that I do sincerely hope you manage, but it may already be to late and you can no way blame her for what you have done.
Stay Safe
Plaza