man you should give the control to someone else, you can’t control your money…” the correct word would be WE can’t”.
I think what you are going through now is you have gambled for few days your brain is tired and he needs to rest from this tension and the only way to reach this goal is to lose all your money….so you will not have more money to gamble and your brain can rest…
I realized this cycle in my case, after 3 weeks of day trading I was reaching a similar stage. I was taking meaningless trades my brain was in Auto mode… he was throwing the money just to stop and rest.
the only way to break this cycle is to give control to someone else.
if you have any extra money find a way to keep it away from you so your brain will calm down and the urges will reduce…
damn, this addiction is the worst thing to could happen to anyone…I hope we can overcome it.