Here we go again!!
a few days back I was watching the movie CRISIS it is about a new drug that has no addictive side effect… however in the movie, there was a scene where scientist are showing the result of their experiments to their manager where all the rats under the experiment died out except one rat didn’t die yet, still alive licking from a small tube that contains the addicted substance. the rats didn’t stop licking that tube they continuously licked it and ignored everything including eating until they died.
somehow I can’t forget this scene, it pops up in my mind a few times a day. it is not new information I have seen similar things before but during watching this movie I was exactly doing what that rat was doing. I was day trading cryptocurrencies with high leverage. I was so obsessed with this activity to a degree where I have ignored everything in my life exactly like that rat.
day#1 again, I don’t feel really bad because I didn’t lose money in fact I gained some but the feeling that I have no control is unbearable.
we are living in a world where money and knowing how to handle it ( saving, investment ….etc) have a huge impact on your progress in life.
and losing the trust that you can handle the money is unbearable.
that’s it for now, I have to sleep early today to recover from the lack of sleep ” I was like that rat for 3 weeks”