Hello all,
Thanks for all the love and support and encouragement to stop. You know this addiction is so evil and it’s such a war every day. I have been gambling so much and I had a very big sports win. Got myself completely out of debt .. why couldn’t I stop? Because as mentioned it’s never enough. I lost it all and got it back so many times, with more profit, but just could not stop and win the war. I have enrolled in meetings again, and blocked myself from the sites I used… it’s a nightmare to be honest. I have ruined my relationship with my family, gf, work, mental and physical health. I have turned to alcohol and drugs , sleepless nights, underperformance at work.. lost so much time spending it with my loved ones. Become a liar living a double life to gamble.. for what? Money? Clearly it’s more than that. It’s all gone again, it’s really the hardest time right now.. trying to quit gambling , substances.. at once.. during a pandemic. Haven’t worked out or eaten clean. In weeks. The past 30 days have been living hell.. it feels like years.. so much damage in such a short time. Today is my day one. I can. I wil.. this will kill me. Take care for now . Sorry I don’t update as mhch.. I’m just ashamed of this hell on earth. I hope I make it..