Murr,
It’s OK man, we understand. I agree its time to tell the family, as you’ll need their support too (in addition to professional help). If you have a family that’s willing to stand by you, take you in, clothe you, feed you etc. AND you have your health – you have EVERYTHING. Please don’t compound things with the booze, it will only cause you to make more bad choices. Remember this, OK? You lost the battle, not the war.
Big difference
The US took a big hit at Pearl Harbor, something it almost didn’t recover from. Almost.. But look what happened – we turned things around at the battle of Midway. Struck a crippling blow to the Japanese fleet, and went on to drop the big one on Hiroshima/Nagasaki to win the war. I believe 100% you’ll turn this around too. You don’t need this sick, vicious cycle of winning it all, losing it all, winning some back then losing everything (plus some). It’s no way to live, and I hope and pray you take just 1 day at a time and beat this disease – once and for all!
Please keep us posted. I really want to see “Day 1 gF”, “Day 20 gf, Day 90 gf etc). We believe in you Murr!