Hi all, I am very sorry. It has been a rough 2 weeks. I read everyone’s posts and I appreciate and love you all witg the bottom of my heart. I am powerless over this addiction . I have been gambling every day since I posted, I manage to win all of my money back and more, Just to lose it all again in minutes. I won again today a very large amount and the voice in
My
Head told me keep going, I even told myself if I win I’m cashing out . Ajd indidnr, I kept playing until every cent was gone. I was just bout to clear my debt to 0, 0$ out of debt, from 30k. Basically to say f u gambling and
Never look back. But gambling took control of me . I owe just as much now, I have won and lost over 30k
This week alone. My gf is about to leave me because she says I’m not helping myself but I am powerless over this addiction . There is no logic. There is no common sense: it is never enough, I never know when to walk abd
I have 0 discipline. I am so ashamed. Drijkjfm
Booze and trying to forget how I lost it, won it all back plus some, lose it all again; win most back, then lose it all again. Same story. Asking
Myself what just happened.. it’s a nightmare.. it’s a blurr.. it happen so fast. I’m torn. I haven’t told my parents but rent is coming up, car payment, bills, and every thing is maxed. I have to tell them.: or I will be homeless.. they will never allow that but I don’t know what to do.. what happened to me .. it was all
Good a week ago. I evej. Got it all back abd profit.. I was so happy.. why do I want to feel this way… why do I have no self control.. I’m lost for words . Story of a degenerate gambler .. it’s never enough .. we always want more and the thrill of hitting our bets.. it’s not even about the money it seems .
Signing off.. I’ll update soon.. I might have to Get pro help.. before I die .. this will kill me