It’s OK man, it’s OK to slip.
Today is a new day, day #1 of your CG addiction going BYE BYE. Think of all the pain, guilt and shame its caused you. How much better off you’d be today if you never discovered gambling. THEN resolve that YOU are in control and calling the shots – not the disease.
I know you want to stop, can see it in your posts. And I believe you can.. Just find people you can go to/tell when the urge hits, who can be strong for you… until you are strong enough on your own. It will be a lifelong battle, but it’s you or the disease.
The two just can’t co-exist…