You can do it man, I’m new to this board but really rooting for you.
It’s strange. I’ve never gambled a cent, am an extreme saver, hate debt etc…… but I have a body image disorder. I see so many of the same behaviors, but at least this one doesn’t have $ problems. I guess we all have our vices. I know its not easy, but stay strong and try and remember – it’s just $. We all have bills, some bigger than others but there’s nobody here who doesn’t have them.
In time you’ll beat this – I really do believe that. But if I’ve learned anything reading these stories this disease is always there, lurking.. waiting for you to slip up and believe its lies. From what I’ve read/seen, this is the worst addiction there is… including hard street drugs. I hope science some day has answers for you..