Good morning Kaifu,
You are not alone…..look how many posts are on here…we all have an addiction that we are trying to overcome..you are a good person and you have a family that cares about you…that is huge!!!!! maybe talk to your family more…have them handle your finances…..maybe get some counseling!! you can overcome this!!!
As I say these things to you, I am talking to myself as well….I am at the beginning of my struggle to overcome gambling as well..