Hello All,
I haven’t been here in 2 days, which is a habit I don’t want to get into, however, I am still gambling free. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t have multiple triggers over the weekend. As I have stated before, my addiction is sports betting and there were several NFL football games on this weekend. I definitely had the urge to place wagers over these games but I kept that thought in my mind of, if I go back to gambling, I know I will not win. Overtime, I always lose. That’s been true for over 10 years, why would it change now?
My addictive mind also tried to convince me I could just gamble a few games a day with a goal of winning $40 dollars per day, which would mean I would win about 280 dollars a week. Sounds good right? But I know, it doesn’t work that way because I’m a compulsive gambler that becomes very greedy when money is on the line.
Needless to say, if I would have placed bets on the games this weekend, the teams I would have picked all won. I would be sitting pretty this morning but guess what? I would have lost it all today somehow, someway on some games. That’s the way it worked. The greed would settle in and the need for action would persist, eventually causing me to lose and lose and lose.
Well, I didn’t mean to ramble so much but I’m glad I got this off my chest. To be honest, I’m not really upset or down about not gambling, actually I feel good because I’ve spent so much time with my family instead of worrying and following scores. It’s been a relief.
Thanks for all your support Fly21! I hope you are doing well.
Be Blessed. Be Safe!
One week down, Day 7, taking this one day at a time! Lets Go!