Hi there Craig,
Your post exactly describes what I am going through right now as well. Some of the words that really resonated with me – “taking it one day a time”, “Tired” “My family deserves better, and quite frankly, I deserve better” “Gambling has affected my health, my family, my finances, my career and my overall well being in a negative manner”.
I have been here before many times, but nothing has lasted more than a couple of months. Its tiring to know that I can make the same mistake over and over, without hesitating. It ends up being worst than the previous time around. I never imagined myself to be in such a situation, nut I really want this time to change. I want to be able to know that I can overcome this disease, and confidently know that for a better future.
But we both need to ensure that we do everything possible to get there, and ensure that we do not get complacent throughout the journey. I don’t have all the answers, but I know that I will do more this time around (zoom meetings, financial limits, talking with others, posting more consistently)
Know that you are not alone in any way, and thank you for starting your post.