I recently turned 22 and have a track record totalling a 5-digit loss (didn’t keep track), still in debt ~1k to my close friends who havent forsaken me even after knowing i have a compulsive gambling habit.
After losing another 1.2k tonight, I’m back on this forum trying to console myself but this time I’m actually going to put in the effort to never ever place another bet again.
We’re the degens who have spun out of control way too early in life. I’ve always told myself that at least I don’t have the additional stress of having to support a family while i push through this disease of sorts but that’s just a pitiful excuse.
I’ve lost a family member to suicide, completely unrelated to gambling, but I have experienced first-hand the wake that it leaves behind. Your burden is passed down to your family and friends, albeit in a different form.
I know little about your situation, but I know that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. Life is long, look up and around at the amazing world we could live in gambling-free. I hope that someone on this forum is able to give you sound advice and a solution that you can use, it’s never ever too late.