Whey aye man!
I’m smiling after reading your post again. Counselling with the right person, I think, is priceless.
I’m pleased you remained gambling free leading up to it. I’m sure you could imagine you wouldn’t have benefitted as much if your head was full of football and worrying that you had no food or petrol.
The more you put in, the more you take it out. I found it made me feel really bad about the former me but really positive about my “new life”.
Pleased you’ve started it, and pleased you didn’t bugger off after my blunt post all those weeks ago. Shows you mean business.