Hello, I have to change. I hate when posts vanish after taking the time to put words in print, but like the money that vanishes in the slot machines , it some times happens . The only difference is the money we put in machines always vanishes. That’s because we are compulsive gamblers , therefore our need to gamble is greater than our need to win. I have proved that to myself, to my horror, on more than one occasion. I remember sitting in the casino, as you describe , hating the slot machines, hating the addiction, hating myself for being there, praying for a win and hey presto the win would come. Prayers answered. Time to leave. But did I ever leave ? Very seldom. The “win” usually went back into the machines and it was only when I was broke and devastated that I had no choice but to slink away like a beaten dog.
Gambling ruins lives. It almost ruined mine. It affected my health/sleep/relationships/finances etc. Every area of my life was thrown into turmoil and what did gambling give me in return? Nothing, except grief and misery and still I kept going back for more.
From what I read , you have reached a crossroads in your life, I have to change.
Now is the time to make a decision.
“Do I continue to allow gambling ruin my life or do I cut my losses and walk away?”
I hope you choose the latter!
