Thanks for the comments..yes I am not sure about the higher power thing. I do know that the longer I am away from gambling (and drinking for that matter) the less I feel the urge. Now I have no money. There would be a couple of options to get some, but not much and it would cut down future options for help to relocate. My job is going badly, not really down to me, but in some small ways it is. So i am trying to focus on that. I am lucky in that I work in very quick paced sales job and so can make money that way. If not I would find it much harder to quit and write off losses and its hard enough. I also know part of the problem is an unhapiness with aspects of life. That is difficult. They are linked in some ways. When I have lost everything as now, I cant afford to socialise and dont want to – because as many will know the gambling and the problems its caused you is always there. Charles the good bad/news is that I have to work weekend so I will be busy this weekend. That has never stopped me before, but with lack of cash and a desire to make progress, I am looking forward to posting 4 days tomorrow. Its try for pma every day at the moment as many times I just wish there was an off life switch. Bu t I am a fighter.
