2am thoughts.
If there’s one thing I’m finding really hard about accepting that I’m a CG is that how do I tell new people I meet in life? Is it just a dark secret that gets locked in a box, and the key thrown away? I don’t work that way, I say what I think, I say how I feel, and I say what I know. Maybe the key to telling people is when you have more trust with them, but then they’d maybe feel betrayed because of not knowing before about being a CG. I know it’s MY problem, but still, we all know how other people act.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m shit scared that no matter who I meet (girls), they’ll judge me for it, because they obviously don’t know anything about being a CG. I’m bricking it, thinking that if I weren’t a CG I’d be able to be with anyone as they wouldn’t judge me…
I just think that if you tell people, they can either accept you or not. If they accept you, that’s great, cos that’s who you are. If you pretend to be someone you’re not, but they accept you, is that really gonna fulfill you? No. Much better to be judged for who you are than rewarded for who you aren’t. Or is that good in theory but not in practice?
2am thoughts, just needed to get it off my mind.
Night.
MrExon