Well two weeks have passed since I started recovery again, again. I think that this time I am suffering more than I ever have.
The hunger pains are turning into cramps sometimes, three out of the four lots of tablets I now take since coming out of hospital, need to be taken with food!
I rang the local foodbank last week hoping they could give me something, but they told me I need to be referred to them!
I have been paid twice in the last two weeks both times not getting paid enough to cover my bills. This week I have to pay the remainder of my phone bill, £45 and I’m £56 overdrawn in the bank so thats the first £100 of my £350 wages gone. My landlord has said I can pay my arrears at £50 a week so for the next seven weeks my rent will be £150. And the advance I got from work is being deducted from my wages at £50 a week. 8 weeks to go.
I am wearing clothes to work now that have been in the laundry since before Christmas.
This is a long haul painful struggle, and to be honest I just cant see the light at the end of the tunnel yet.